12 weeks and back to work

12 weeks old!

My big baby boy is 12 weeks old today...Not only that, Mommy had to return to work today. It was without a doubt one of the hardest days of my life. I woke up at 6 to get ready for work and Wyatt decided that he was ready to eat as well. I fed him and dad finished up while I got ready for work. He went back to sleep at 7:30 after many minutes of me just carrying him around kissing on him. Once Ryan's mom arrived I put him in the crib, grabbed my pictures and headed to work. I didn't look back...

Ryan caught me in the car, gave me tissue, and kissed me goodbye. I cried all the way to work as well as at work. I was completely anti-social at work until about 11:30 when I decided I would start talking. I love the women I work with because they simply said, "Sarah we are glad to have you back and that's all I'm going to say for now." Thank goodness...the moment someone asked, "How are you?" I lost it. Sad right?

Ryan must have really felt sorry for me after the numerous "I can't do this." texts because he ended up bringing me a new vehichle that we've been contemplating getting. Bribary I like to say. I do love the vehicle, but I may love not having car payments more. We are just going to see...We do need a bigger vehicle, but I'm not sure just how much. I guess we can just pray about it and if it's right for us then so be it. If not, we will just enjoy the good ole Cadillac a little longer.

We have plans for our family and I just hope and pray that they all work out the way I hope that they do...

Until then, the days will gradually become better and by better I mean easier. That's my hope at least.

Also, Porch lights on for Caylee Marie Anthony is tonight at 9:00, in your time zone. You can find the group on facebook here...our light is definitely going on at 9. :(