Becoming a mother of 2

I am very quickly approaching the status of being a mom of "two under two."

In approximately 35 days give or take, my life is going to change very dramatically yet again.

My heart is going to double in love.

My bank account is going to be cut in half.

But more importantly, my heart is going to double in love.

To be honest, I cannot fathom loving another child as much as I do Wyatt.

In fact, it terrifies me.

However, I know that while I cannot even imagine this, I know that it's going to happen very naturally. God has so perfectly chosen this little girl for our family and I know that the love that comes with her is going to be amazing. My heart is ready for another baby. It's ready to burst just seeing Wyatt interact with her, to learn her name, to give her kisses, to hold her, to protect her, to be there for her.

Kids are amazing. They truly are. They can bring you the greatest joy and bring you to tears without even trying. Trust me, I've shed plenty of tears within the last weeks over Wyatt...over his "only child" status. I know that he will never know life without a sibling and for that I am thankful. I know that he is going to fall into this big brother role effortlessly and I continually pray that it's an easy adjustment for him. I ask, if you think about it, to say a little prayer for him too.

What's so funny about this pregnancy is that I'm constantly asked if this is my last baby. I always reply with a "it's not off the table." Truthfully, it's not. We may or may not decide to expand our family yet again, but right now I want to soak up my little boy and my little girl that I've yet to even meet. I want to cherish the time with my two babies as much as I cherish (am cherishing) my time with Wyatt before a third baby is in question. (So I guess give me about 6 or 7 months after I have Claire- ha!)

I would be lying if I said I didn't have fears about being a mother of two. How to split my time. How to feel like I've still got it all together. How to make sure things get done around the house when I sometimes struggle now with one. How to make sure Wyatt still feels important when I have a newborn that truly needs me. How do I not see Wyatt as completely grown up and so big once Claire gets home. A thousand questions run through my mind. Yet, I know that people do this all the time. Heck, my mom did it nearly 30 years ago with me and my brother who just like my babies will be 22 months apart.

I am so, so lucky to have a mother and mother-in-law who are very willing to help us out when/if we need it. During these last couple of weeks, I know that I'm naturally going to get more and more tired. More so than I already am. This is when I know I can call my mom without hesitation and ask for a couple hours of rest and she'll be there to pick up Wyatt. Those first few days after I have Claire I know I will need my mom more than anything. She will probably get tired of me. Not Wyatt or Claire but definitely me. Ha!

So yes, while I am very, very excited about having another baby and I am nervous. I know what to expect in a way, but also I don't. Claire is a totally different person than Wyatt and while I hope she is an easy baby like Wyatt was I'm definitely ready for the challenge if not. She is going to be such a wonderful addition to our family. I am looking forward to holding her, kissing on her, but most importantly, introducing her to her big brother.

If any mothers of two babies have any advice send it my way!!